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All Good Things Come to an End

It’s about life, it’s about relationships and friendships, but I’m mostly mourning this…

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From my vibrantly blooming Old Copper rhododendron (note the cream trim on my house–now it’s off-white) to a dead stick; I didn’t even notice it dying. Now I wonder when its decline started and why I assumed it would live forever.

I was very firm with the guy coming to cut it down that I only wanted it leveled to the ground and not pulled out. I have so many plants and bulbs in this small flowerbed that could be destroyed by yanking out the rhody’s huge root system. It was a reality check when he told me that yes, he agreed, not because of my reasons but out of worry about cables and other things under there. As many of you remember, my late husband spent a lot of time and effort hunting down an Old Copper rhody for me because he knew I loved the orange/coral color. He was a Purple Splendor guy himself!

Although it’s a rite of passage, it’s still a shock to see Sharky losing his baby teeth. Permanent ones are so BIG when they come in, and the children don’t look the same at all with different size and shape teeth. It’ll take some adjustment.

Perhaps I shouldn’t get overly attached to any of my plants? This big fellow was hopping around my flowerbed while I was mowing my front lawn, totally fearless and nibbling away on something. Hopefully the leaves of my dying away tulips.

Book Club yesterday was a litany of more lost colleagues, two lovely English teachers to cancer. As we discussed, it’s a part of life, losing people through death or disappearance. My friend group has changed quite a bit in the past few years; I still have a strong social network although some I thought were friends have dropped away. As the saying goes, perhaps they were just there for a season or a reason; not every connection is meant to last forever, but each one has a specific purpose.

This morning I was happy not to get up at Teacher Time (5:15 a.m.) to go watch Ian and deliver him to daycare like I did yesterday. Since retirement, I’m more of an 8 a.m. riser. However, I loved helping out and Ian was full of smiles, laughter and loud “talking.” After the daycare drop off, I had a delightful coffee date. I thought I was doing well without any coffee but discovered about 9 that I really wanted/needed some caffeine. No headache, just ready for a nap. šŸ™‚

Today’s “excitement” is a dental appointment and then perhaps some lawn mowing. Yard maintenance is never ending this time of year!

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18 responses to “All Good Things Come to an End”

  1. Doug M Avatar
    Doug M

    I sure am sorry to see it go Margaret, I wonder why it did? Anyway, Sharky does seem to be growing up fast and I loved seeing that rabbit you caught with your camera. But my gosh, so sorry for the loss of two “colleagues” to cancer. As much as I hate these long covid symptoms, I’m grateful they’re not the “big C” word.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I didn’t notice when it started declining and wish I had. We had those atmospheric rivers in the fall, and that bed doesn’t get very good drainage, so perhaps it got root rot? That rabbit is very well fed! Grrrr. Sharky is growing up so fast. 😳

  2. Luftmentsch Avatar

    Was Old Copper very orange? It always looks pink in your photos. I think I’m with your husband regarding rhododendron colour.

    R seems to (finally) be getting her first baby tooth…

    1. Margaret Avatar

      Old Copper was coral/orange with a pinkish throat. In some photos, it did look pinker than in others. Yay for a long awaited tooth! Ian is drooling everywhere and I’m expecting a tooth anytime.

  3. Siobhan Avatar
    Siobhan

    I have had a similar garden loss Margaret – we are having a heatwave in the UK which I am sure accelerated things , but my plant died very swiftly
    My garden wildlife has included squirrels , a badger , at least one fox . I have also had a dental appointment ( which I never like but was ok )
    Milo has also had a dental procedure ( last week ) and two teeth removed . I felt awful agreeing to it , but I know how dangerous tooth infections can be for cats . He seems to be recovering well, although has hated the heatwave .The vet took some pre op bloods and was really pleased with the results, particularly as he is an older chap now
    Like you , friends have fallen away . I invited one blog friend to visit last year , and it was a disaster – other than being widows we discovered in real life we had little in common- interests , ideas , education or aspirations- it was a very long three weeks and I had to ask that we not remain in touch .Other friends expect me to be , and I am quoting here ā€œ back to
    my old self ā€œ-
    that grief is something you deal with and move on from – I can’t move on from the death of my person ( and I am not sure I would want to ). I hate being a widow – because I wanted more time with Tony
    You sound busy but well , which I hope you are
    Siobhan x

    1. Margaret Avatar

      Weather (in our case too many atmospheric rivers) could be a factor–or the age of the plant. Perhaps I’ve put too many other flowers in that bed? Older cats often have tooth issues and they are dangerous; I’m glad you did what was best for Milo, even though you had reservations about it. That’s interesting about the blog friend; I’ve met several and even spent a couple nights with my friend in Edinburgh. Our get togethers went extremely well, but it wasn’t three weeks. I would hesitate to invite anyone over for that long! I look at my situation as not moving on but moving forward. I bring my late husband with me in my memories and feelings yet am still living a vibrant and engaging life. I know that’s what he would have wanted. Everyone is different in their approach to grief and healing. It does take time, lots of it.

  4. Midwest Mark Avatar

    As a person who regularly gets up at 5 a.m., I often wonder whether that habit will change when I’m retired. I’m assuming so, since it did when I was unemployed for a long stretch.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I’m not saying that I’m sleeping at 8, I might just be lying in bed–but the luxury of not getting up to an alarm is incredible.

  5. Marie Avatar
    Marie

    So sad to see Old Copper died. I’ve enjoyed seeing photos throughout the years. What book(s) did your group choose?

    1. Margaret Avatar

      We chose “The Book Club of Troublesome Women” (excited about that), “The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie” (a classic but it’s short), “The Loneliness of Sonia and Sunny” (long and not very thrilled about this one) and for December, another lengthy tome “The Calamity Club” by the same author who wrote “The Help.” Thanks for our coffee date; I always enjoy them very much! xoxo

  6. Tonya Avatar

    Oh yes…the disappearance of those two top front teeth especially take some acclimating. AND, they take forever to grow in (Usually? Often?) It took nearly 9 months for Quinn’s permanent front teeth to fully grow in (he’d lost both within a week), and unless some natural adjustments happen over time as they settle, I sense he’s going to need braces eventually. šŸ™

    I’m very sorry about Old Copper. I LOVED the color! It certainly did seem sudden.

    Holy moly, that rabbit! Yikes! I wonder if it’s a “hare?” I recently learned that hares are quite different from rabbits, although they are of the same umbrella family.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      That’s interesting! I didn’t know that it could take that long for the permanent ones to come in. Sharky won’t look like himself. I also loved the color and it was unusual which I appreciated. That rabbit is huge! I’m pretty sure it’s not a hare but I’m no expert.

  7. Betty Renfroe Avatar
    Betty Renfroe

    The Rhody’s demise is like a family death. I feel sad you won’t see the blooms again. Only memories

    Ada is losing baby teeth too. She’s going to what they call ā€œcampā€ this summer. They swim each day, have craft time, game time, hike. She carries a sack lunch and is loving it. Next week it’s swimming lessons. She’s not athletic like Greta. I’m praying she learns to swim. Our little ones seem to change overnight. They look more like youngsters and less like babies.

    Keep up all that grandparent stuff. It’s important work.

    I’m reading ā€œThe Third Act of Theo Greeneā€ by Talya Tate Boerner. She’s from Arkansas. I’m enjoying it. Your book club should try a book by this AR author….please. Tell them your hillbilly friend recommended her. lol
    Her other books~~
    The Accidental Salvation of Gracie Lee
    Gene, Everywhere
    Bernice Runs Away

    1. Margaret Avatar

      Although it’s normal to lose baby teeth, it feels like a new stage of childhood which I guess it is! What a fun camp!! Sharky loves his swimming lessons and Obro likes them OK. We have so much water around here that learning to swim is non-negotiable. I’ve never heard of that author but will check her out.

  8. Kaye Avatar
    Kaye

    The loss of your old copper reminds me “everything changes”. Yes.

    The loss of friends and family and spouses. Saturday I’m going to the memorial service of the man who was the best man in our wedding. I was going through old photos to give to my friend (his wife-still friends after 40 or so years) and we looked so young!? – were young. As the old cliche goes – where does the time go?

    On a happier note your grandchildren are beautiful and I’m so happy that you get to share in their lives!

    Onward.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      Onward indeed! I remind myself that changes can be positive and that we have to take the bad with the good. Still, it’s hard. I’m so sorry about your friend’s spouse and happy that you’re there for her. I’m thankful for friends and family who have stood with me in tough times. Not everyone did.

  9. Ed Avatar

    I always go through a morning period when losing an established plant in my lawn followed by a period of anticipation of what I could plant there next.

  10. kayak woman Avatar

    As sad as it is to lose the rhody, I was relieved to find out that it wasn’t somebody like, well John, for instance, who I have come to know and like a lot if only vicariously via your blog šŸ™‚

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