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Present and Future

Longing for and reminiscing about the past are so tempting. I read a quote yesterday about the importance of appreciating the halcyon days when our children were young and our parents were healthy. Actually, I was extremely thankful for those times although it also makes it more difficult to let go of them and accept the present where relationships are complicated and families can be…problematic.

My treat for yesterday was driving on Interstate 5 in rush hour (JUST KIDDING!) to meet OD and the boys for their swimming lessons. They are both making such progress! Afterward, we had dinner at a local Thai restaurant; I thought of how impressed my parents would have been to see the littles enjoying Masaman curry, Pad Thai, crab rangoons, and mango sticky rice while discussing their love for various cuisines like Indian food. Isn’t it clever and cute to make a flower with the straw? As inept as I am, I would have no idea how to do this. While we were eating, Older Daughter talked about how excited she is for my birthday party and interrogated me on exactly what kind of cake I want her to make, besides the Costco chocolate one that I’ve fallen in love with. She knows that hummingbird and carrot cake are my favorites, but I don’t want her to stress herself out, as I mentioned to her. I now realize that she would have been terribly hurt if I’d sent the email asking to cancel the party, so I’m very relieved that I didn’t do so. A shout out to my future Ireland roomie and long-time friend for her wise counsel about the party and for talking me down from the emotional cliff where I’d stranded myself.

Speaking of Ireland, one of the documents that I’ve printed out is a list of our fellow travelers. I thought they would mostly be from Washington, but they’re from all over, including a couple from Colombia. I noticed quite a few singles also, reminding me of my trip to Scotland when I often felt alone as the rare, uncoupled person. I’ll do my best to befriend those singles, occasionally inviting them to sit with us or join us at dinner, as my parents always did when they went on tours. However, I also don’t want anyone to latch on and hang out with us all the time, especially if their personalities don’t mesh with ours. Or their politics!

I fit in another walk yesterday since the air quality was still moderate in the morning. Today will be hot and I’m busy this morning, so unless I’m willing to exercise in 93-degree hazy sunshine, I’ll have to take a pass. As I went by this street, a guy was taking photos of the caution tape, so I innocently inquired about it. He went off on a rant about how a moving van hit the lines, the garbage trucks couldn’t get through and now he has to wait another week for his garbage pick up. Instead of being angry at the moving van, he was outraged at the garbage company who wasn’t making a special trip out to get his trash. Hey, they’re on a schedule, dude. Whenever I’ve called the company, I’ve chatted immediately with a very nice and helpful person; for skipped pickups (usually for weather), they’ve instructed me to just put the extra garbage in bags and set them alongside the can the next week. However, this guy just wanted to be angry, so I walked on.

On a more positive note, doesn’t Ian have the sweetest smile?

Also, John and I have a date for Friday to go to my favorite Tacoma waterfront restaurant for lunch, possibly followed by a film. Although we would both like to see “The Odyssey,” I’m leaning more toward “Toy Story 5.” I need something funny and feel good!

A quote I love:

“When you walk through a museum, you’re not just looking at art. You’re moving through centuries of people trying to explain love, grief, power, beauty and belonging.”

Great literature does the same.

Comments

31 responses to “Present and Future”

  1. Doug M Avatar
    Doug M

    Gee I love that top photo, and so glad you have a wonderful afternoon with OD, Margaret. I’m very glad you kept mum about the birthday party too. I can’t wait to see the cake she dreams up! Your trip to Ireland just sounds wonderful, I am so envious… and of course Baby Ian’s smile is the best. Things definitely sound on the up & up. :^)

    1. Margaret Avatar

      Thank you, Doug! The top photo could have been better but with that many people (including 4 little kids), we’re fortunate that we got that one. In a different photo, Anders is running away. Obro is making a very funny face in another. I’m glad that I didn’t cancel the party; I think there would have been many hurt feelings. Plus, OD paid a deposit on the room that she might lose. She won’t tell me how much this shindig is going to cost which makes me nervous that they’re spending too much money. OD can afford it; YD can’t.

  2. Maureen Avatar
    Maureen

    You are being so gracious about the party. It may seem a bit of a chore, but you get to be the guest of honor, so maybe just embrace that. The top photo is pretty wonderful too! I can’t wait to hear all abut Ireland when you go.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I don’t relish being the center of attention but with the food and beer there, people will find other distractions. 🙂 And my family wants me to feel special so I’m happy about that. Ireland is looming, isn’t it? Eek!!

  3. Pixie Avatar

    That baby has the most amazing eyes! They’re gorgeous.

    I’m glad that you and John have a date planned. I’m sure my husband will want to see the Odyssey but I’m not sure I’ll watch it with him, maybe just the non violent parts:)

    You’re so lucky going to Ireland. One day I’m hoping I’ll make it there.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      He does have beautiful eyes; I hope they stay blue. His brother’s changed to green. I’m excited to finally visit Ireland although I wish I could teleport there like in Star Trek. The flight and time change won’t be fun for a 70-year-old.

  4. Pipe Tobacco Avatar
    Pipe Tobacco

    A lot of thoughts and questions today:

    1) What actually IS a hummingbird cake?

    2) I am glad too that you are still keeping the birthday party! Hopefully the hardship that happened may be organically calming itself, and perhaps there will be smoother than anticipated “sailing” at the party.

    3) I am happy you and John are soon again able to get together. It has been a rough patch of “ancillary to your relationship” things for both of you…. it will be nice to be able to be together again after all that.

    4) We too always encouraged our kids to try any of the various cuisines we adults were having. They developed quite a fondness for every cuisine! It sometimes irks them with their many “monocuisine” friends being squeamish and unwilling to try anything much beyond “diner” staples.

    5) We saw both “The Odyssey” and “Toy Story 5”. My grade for “The Odyssey” was a B- and my grade for “Toy Story 5” was an A-. The Odyssey was basically IMO an Ancient Greek version of “Lord of the Rings” which is not my favorite type of movie….. basically a group of folks set off on a journey to fight some folks, then the travel some more and fight some other folks, and then do so again, and again and again. And The Odyssey also had a plethora of moody, dark, long scenes where the cameras were wildly moving about to create “action” but mostly IMO it was done to allow mostly poor focus of images on the screen to disguise the ample CGI. Toy Story, by contrast, had what IMO was a very good message, and it was much more fun, colorful, and “feel good” to me.

    6. The paper flower is indeed cute…. But I agree it would be difficult to produce.

    7. In Ian’s new image, he again reminds me more again of similar aged images of Anders! Previously they had seemed to be developing more separate features from each other…. now it seems again they are more similar. Perhaps it is related to Ian’s new teeth? Not sure.

    PipeTobacco

    1. Margaret Avatar

      OD was feeding Sharky red red and other West African dishes when he was young, so he’s grown up trying interesting foods. Obro wants to do everything that his older brother does; he idolizes him! I will be happy to spend time with John; I’ve been missing his calmness and affection. He’s such a sweet man and very kind. That’s good to know about The Odyssey since I wasn’t sold on the Lord of Rings, either the film or the book. I’ve enjoyed all the Toy Story films so that’s definitely my preference. My favorite recipe for Hummingbird cake includes banana, pecans, coconut, and pineapple. It’s like carrot cake in that it’s full of other stuff; I’m not a fan of plain chocolate or vanilla cakes. https://www.thatskinnychickcanbake.com/classic-hummingbird-cake-with-coconut/
      Ian and Anders do look somewhat alike although Anders looks more and more like his dad while Ian more like my daughter. (in my opinion)

  5. Marie Avatar
    Marie

    What a great family photo! Love Ian’s smile. Who wrote that quote? I’d love to use it in a book review.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I wish I knew who wrote the quote! I’ve looked on the internet, to no avail. Family photos could always be improved in small ways, but this one is definitely a keeper.

  6. Linda Avatar

    Dear Margaret, the first and last photos are so amazing! Beautiful smiles, wonderful time spent together! Ian is so precious! Please give him a hug for me!

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I’m hoping to give both younger grandsons hugs and snuggles tonight. I finally got my four grandson and two daughter photo, yay!

  7. Pipe Tobacco Avatar
    Pipe Tobacco

    Yes, I meant to ask who wrote that quote also!

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I’ve looked all over on-line for its author and haven’t found any reference. If you do, let me know so I can attribute it. I saw it on Instagram.

  8. Midwest Mark Avatar

    Living in the moment is tricky. I always try to pull back and appreciate something good while it’s happening, because I know one day it will be nothing more than a memory.

    Easier said than done, though. Especially when your kids are little and you can’t wait ’til they grow up so they’ll quit misbehaving already!

    1. Margaret Avatar

      That’s an excellent attitude to take, Mark. Living in the moment is all we really have, although we can look forward to the future (an unknown) and feel nostalgic for the past (unchangeable) My younger daughter has misbehaved way more as an adult than she did as a child or even teenager.

  9. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    I love the family photo. Everybody looks happy!
    You are the most loving, forgiving, and supportive mother I know.
    Hopefully all will go smoothly at the B-day party, and you will not be disappointed.
    (N.B.: Those that trigger drama do not want an audience so there is hope.)
    Ian is a very handsome baby boy. His expressions and smiles are very sweet.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      Thank you, Susan. Your words mean a lot. I try to be all those things, but they don’t always bring the harmony and closeness that I desire. Or the good decisions! There are enough people at the birthday party who know the whole story and have my back. I just don’t want any embarrassment for the innocent parties. I think it will go fine though. Ian is a charmer!

  10. JT Twissel Avatar

    That’s a great quote! My daughter would make me a vegan, no dairy, no sugar cake and serve it with mocktails to be followed by a five mile hike and then some very cheesey rom-com film starring people I’ve never heard of!! We unfortunately have the same birthday and you know how it goes – kids always win!

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I love it! LOL I don’t mind vegan food, but I’m all about dairy and too much sugar, unfortunately. Your birthday is the same as mine? Are we the same age too?

      1. JT Twissel Avatar

        My birthday is the same as my daughters!

    2. Margaret Avatar

      Oops, I somehow misread that!

  11. Ed Avatar

    Glad to hear you didn’t send the email. I hope it pays off dividends on your upcoming trip.

    I can sympathize with the skipped garbage guy. If they miss ours, they won’t come back and the only advice is to hang onto it until next week. Generally a missed garbage can means a full month of collections before I can get all of my trash for the week into a can. It isn’t very big and if I cram too many in their, when they grip it with their gripper they won’t slide out even when upside down. I’ve had to surreptitiously find some alleyway bins near apartments a time or two over the years to fix the situation quicker. Fortunately the garbage company was bought up by another a few years back and the problems have largely gone away now.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I’m relieved and happy I didn’t send it either. It was touch and go though. Our garbage company is good about picking up extra (missed) garbage the next week for no charge. I don’t really see that the company had much choice. Throwing their whole schedule off for one small road would be ridiculous.

  12. Ceci Avatar
    Ceci

    What a break that your talk with OD makes it seem like the party will be OK! And hummingbird cake, what a lucky birthday gal you are. Now if the air quality would just improve….

    Ceci

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I was torn about the party and now I’m not; I admit that I’ll be relieved when it’s over. However, I’m also intending to have a wonderful time with the friends and family who show up. And eat cake! The air quality is bad right now. Unhealthy. Mari and I are hanging out inside.

  13. AC Avatar

    You are right that it is sometimes (often?) best to hold onto our thoughts. The Irish cop show that we recently watched has the expression, “Take a beat.” I like it.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      Unless there is some kind of deadline, I think it’s almost always best to “Take a beat.” Reacting instantly out of anger and hurt can make the situation worse.

  14. Luftmentsch Avatar

    The quote at the end is great. My Mum was ill before our baby was born, though. That’s the problem with marrying late, not that we intended to do so. At least Mum is doing well now, but it’s worrying that she has a major health crisis every couple of years.

    It’s hard to get kosher ethnic food in London, doubly so for vegetarians as we (sort of) are, but we can get a good Thai takeaway.

    1. Margaret Avatar

      I wish I could find out who wrote it, but I’ve searched and found nothing except that someone saw it on Reddit. (which I don’t use) We’re having babies at more advanced ages which means our parents are older too. I was 30 and 33 when I had mine, but my daughters were in their mid to late 30s. So, compared to many of my high school friends, I’m an ancient grandparent. 🙂 Some of them have great-grandchildren who are school age or even older. Thai food is easily adaptable to many diets. Plus, it’s delicious!

  15. Betty Renfroe Avatar
    Betty Renfroe

    Ian is a cherub. So perfect. Attendant of God.

    Date night. Eric (my sil)went to see the Odyssey. He said it was 3 hours long and had good reviews. Haven’t heard if he liked it. He invited Siggie. She told him it was too long.

    It’s amazing how some people think they are the center of the universe and if anything happens that affects them, it’s a rant. Come to think of it they’re usually male! 🤭🤭

    So glad you’re still able to get your steps in. Three days a week will keep you steady, but it’ll take 4 or more to improve.

    Your feet look BIG in the photo. It’s just an illusion.

    I hope you don’t get stuck with political pushers on your trip. Everyone should leave those opinions at home.

    Hope the birthday is perfect. At least you don’t have to dress like they did in 1956….poodle skirt. Lol

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